Okay. I need to do something. I've been working like crazy, working sick, working hurt, working extra days, extra hours... getting dogged nearly every step of the way recently.

Can't quit. Want to. First job I've ever truely wanted to quit. Not take a break. Just not go back.

I've been letting my writing go by the way side, but not anymore. I'm going to do something. Something good, something real. I don't want to catch a break, I want to break through. Nothing will ever truely make my fire die, but it can burn down. Not now though. I wont let it.

The things in life I want that I may not have, and I may never get, wont discourage me. Nor will the doubt of an uncertain future. I'll use them as fuel. I know that life is one big heap of uncertanties, and there are things that I want out of life that may not happen, but it wont be because I let myself turn into someone I don't want to be.

My mind is bursting with ideas, my spirit wants to take those who need help and help them, and my heart wants to find it someone to love. Tacky, yes, but truth.

I will make something of myself.

I will help those who I see need it.

No one will stop me.